where's Kyle?

In the past week, on 2 occasions I've woken up in the middle of the night frantically searching for Kyle. I jump out of bed, throw the covers down, look under the pillows... no Kyle. Then I start really freaking out - I start yelling at Brian "Don't move! Kyle might be under you!! I can't find him!"

Looking at me like I might be certifiably insane, Brian calmly tells me to look at the baby monitor - and I see Kyle, sleeping soundly in his crib. I kind of wake up, but not really, and get back in bed and fall right asleep.

I guess it's true that a mom is always worried about her baby, even in the deepest of sleep. The feeling I have when I "wake up" and can't find Kyle is pure panic. What's weird is that Kyle has never slept in bed with us; he was sleeping in our room up until last week, but he was always in his rock 'n play. I'm not sure what triggers these types of dreams and why I think he gets lost in our bed, but it's such a terrible feeling. I hope when I'm more used to Kyle sleeping in his own room that these nightmares go away.