It sometimes happens during the typical moments, like when I'm rocking him at night and he falls asleep holding my hand, or when he looks up unexpectedly while we're reading a book for a long, sloppy open-mouth kiss. But sometimes it sneaks up on me, and during those times the lumps seem a little bit bigger because they seem to come out of nowhere!
The latest unexpected moment of mom-pride-love-sappycrazylady was when I let Kyle hold a food pouch for the first time. I know, it seems nuts, but something about watching him stand there in his big boy sandals that he loves so much and eating the food like he's been doing it all his life made my heart explode. You would have thought I was at his college graduation from the way I was holding back tears and wanting to run over and grab him and tell him how much I love him.
I never considered that something so trivial would conjure up such emotion. I absentmindedly handed him a pouch for a snack to try something new and thought nothing of it, but the second I saw him in action I was fighting back tears.
I can't imagine how many times the crazy mom ghost will come to visit in the next 10 years, or 20... who are we kidding, does it ever leave us completely?!
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| the lump maker! I can't take it! |
